November 25th

the distance between then and now is astounding. How did we lose so much time? Which road do we take now? move forward with the tides. Watching the rise of the moon from park swings at midnight.
You are amazing. Fixing yourself, making matters worse. I've been trying to watch, seeing with closed eyes. Today I lived for just 28 minutes and 47 seconds. For the last time i listened to broken words plowing through the silenced air

Moments away, lost in spoken motion. Eerie nostalgia, sweeping essence of those lost days. I wander. how i looked up to you, you'll never know. Wishing to someday be you. I've lost interest in mediocre things. Heart is where my breath gives and takes what it has received, home is neither you nor he.Pardon me, but weren't you the one supporting the cause.
I can't stop you from hurting me...
too lonesome to give a damn. I'm starting to get bored with life again, you again, this again. Break the pattern. "If you don't love me now you will never love me again."

I've been dying to let you go

Starting over

And as we lay there side by side
I dreamt of you.
You told me you loved me
a dream of a better you
and i awoke to find still asleep next to me
unchanged.

Casual(free non-sense)

we were following the sound of footsteps
I, yours, you mine.
I was hanging there wanting to be caught
they were
Afraid for us, when i finally wasn't scared to feel what was quaking inside.
and we froze our moments in time with the Polaroids scattering.
This is us; running away. Fleeing.
Peter pan complex in full, only hurting for each others love.
why does this hurt so good?
It is only then, when i know you are mine.
we're shinning here in the dark
I am open.

Killer

you impress me.



You supress me.



you depress me.

Soulmate Series: Edition 1

I tried Remembering you
I can pray you're finding your way
we never hoped for distance
journeys crossed with forks at every pivot
i can pray you're finding your way

My heart whispered yesterday
Whimpered for your heart's recognition
isn't it painful? Did you feel the pain?
riped open & apart, severed
Crying, something in me missing
Something in me missing you.

Who are you? speak
Please
I must hear.

Work In Progress

There I was reeling
head hurt-aching
I can't think
you empty me.

crash

fireworks and lightning bolts. I find this interesting. come away with me, at the hours end and cascade along the spirals' interlude.
Cooling tea rested near the window seal. floral arrangements of the gardens gates keep this view happy when humming birds flutter with admiration.
6am i'm barely sleeping the orchestra is right on time as the steet cleaners and garbage trucks hum their tunes and a roarin engine performs its solo.
i am waiting for you.
Meet me again... near the bridge and we'll pick up at the suite.
sometimes when i'm alone i can hear you. i can feel you resting inside my soul.
and i think you're there somewhere out there too far but close enough to understand we are part of the spirals' chorus, high/low i wait for you.